Monday, December 6, 2010

Asher has a new love

I have to post some adorable pics of my baby boy. He will be 18 months old on the 13th of December so I guess he isnt really a baby baby anymore. :) He loves pajamas and slippers and his winter hat. He sleeps with them. Check out these cute pics. :)

Monday, November 15, 2010

This is long overdue....

I have to apologize to my friends and family for not writing for so long. Sometimes the thought of posting on my blog is me groaning and dragging my feet. LOL Why? I dont know......just have other things to do maybe? Or other things I would rather do?? Anyhow...I am feeling ready to blog a little today so here is the update...

Hannah is in Kindergarten and she loves it. This winter has been hard on her. She is sick a lot from kids at school and church and has lost a lot of weight...3 lbs and counting. She has missed 11 or 12 days and has been present 37 days. Not a good ratio but what can we do? I am optimistic still and I am holding off as long as possible from pulling her out of school and church for the winter. I wish some parents would just keep their sick kids home and not spread germs cuz yeah ok..your kid is healthy but mine isnt. So why punish her for it? gets me mad. But she is doing good for the most part.

Maizer is officially potty trained and is doing excellent! He doesnt wear a diaper at all not even to sleep in! I am so proud of him. He is turning 4 on December 15th. I cant believe how grown up my kids are getting. Maizer brings me a lot of joy. He is very aware of anothers feelings and he just loves people. He always tells me I am beautiful.

Asher is also a good boy. He is very busy and happy and wants to do everything the other kids can do. He is fearless! LOL He is going through a phase where he will smack you a good one so we have to watch out but he is just keeping us on our toes! He is very loving....usually. :)

So my sweet children are doing great and we have been up to some fun things. I will post our trip and Hannah's first tooth lost and a swimming day soon. :) Love you all!

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Asher's 1st Birthday!!

Here are some cute pics of the big boy!!! I think he liked his cake! :)

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Asher's Birthday

Today my little Asher turned one! I will post some pictures tomorrow about the happy day! We had a nice time.

Thursday, May 27, 2010


Maizer is a wonderful little boy who really never gives me any trouble. He is sensitive which can be somewhat tiring at times when he cries over nothing but I remember that to him things mean a lot more. What I love so much about Maizer is that he is so loving and cuddley, he is funny and I love to hear his laughter. When I sit on the couch he climbs up there and sits next to me. If I come out of my room dressed and showered or ready for church or if I just put my shoes on he always tells me I look beautiful! I love this so much because it is so sincere in the simplicity of the compliment. Yes Maizer, my blue tennis shoes make me look beautiful don't they? As does my wet hair from my shower. LOL He makes me feel his love so easily and for this I cherish him so. He says randomly everyday several times a day..."Mommy?" "Yes Maizer." "I loovvee you." And then he puts his head down and looks to the left or right trying to hide his face with a shy smile on it. "I love you too sweet boy!" And the world is good for him. He will come to me with a slight cry and not quite know what he wants or needs so I ask him, "Do you want some chocolate milk?" "Yes!" After he drinks it he gets down from the table and says as he walks off "Now I'm happy!" Yep, I've fixed the unbalance in the universe with chocolate milk! Go me! I hope as Maizer grows that all I ever need to do for him to make him happy is a hug, kiss, and cup of chocolate milk!

Monday, May 24, 2010

How old are you anyway? 15?

This is the conversation in a nutshell that I had with Hannah yesterday.

Me: Please stop hitting each other with that big ball, you are going to hurt your neck.

Hannah: It's not our neck it's our back. Calm down now mommy, stop freakin' out.

Hmmm, ok. LOL

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Busy Baby

Asher sure is growing up fast! He is by far the fastest walker in the bunch as he started walking at 10 1/2 months and my others were about 1 year old. Here are some pics on his 11 month old birthday. :) I can't believe we will be celebrating his 1 year birthday in a matter of a few weeks!!! That's nuts!

Some more cute ones. :) A haircut is in his near future. :)

I call these his Farmville Jammies!! LOL!!

Thursday, April 29, 2010

Where are my roots?

I have been thinking a lot lately about how much I love being a mother. But where are my roots? My mother committed suicide when I was 12 years old and my grandmother raised me but she was not my mother and though I knew she loved me, she had not grown knowing how to show or communicate love very well.

I can remember as a child knowing that I loved babies and I couldn't wait to be a mom. I have wanted children of my own for forever. Now I have 3 children and look forward to when we can announce a fourth.

My mothering skills have been based on what I wish I had when I was growing up and didn't, coupled with my natural instincts and great love I have for each individual child in my home. I sometimes take a step back and make sure that the path I am on is the path I should be on.

When Hannah was a baby she stopped growing well. I was told how desperately she needed calories by her Dr.'s. She wouldn't eat. I was told to give her high calorie foods and not worry about what kind of foods they were for now because all that mattered was something in her belly.

My path was taken from me and I was given a new path. A path I did not want to tread on. But such is life and we make do with what we are given. I have come a long way in my personal journey. Now I feel ready to reclaim the mothering path I wish to be on.

This must be done in small steps but the first one I can't wait to tackle is eating. Food, glorious food. I grew up on fattening type meals and not much thought to healthy living even though we ate vegetables and fruits it was paired with fried chicken, cheesy casseroles, and plenty of buttered garlic bread. Food equals love, right? Yes, it can. I love my children and so I try my best to feed them and give them full tummys and happy hearts. But what to do when the way you may have changed past patterns was taken from your control? I would not have raised my children on full calorie pudding, cream cheese chicken, french fries and chicken nuggets, hersey kisses, and packaged snacks and cookies. However, I would have treated them every now and then but kept things more basic and healthy with choices of good food to eat or not eat. Wouldn't I have????

The funny thing is, would I really have known enough to do that based on how I was raised and all that I knew? I would have made meals I knew how to and given food the way I knew how to. I suppose the painful truth of the matter is that I never knew how to feed my children because I wasn't fed well. Yes there was food, but sometimes there wasn't food. Yes there was dinner, but there wasn't snacks. Often times we had half of the whole picture. I did know that when Hannah was born I fed her based on her cues. If she was hungry she got to eat. But her cues were off because she didn't feel hunger like she should have and I became desparate from what the Dr.'s were telling me and then our lives were patterned. Patterned to behaviors not condusive to good and healthy eating habits. Behaviors which actually caused setbacks in our journey. Behaviors that were normal for the circumstances but that could have had different outcomes had I known back then what I know now.

I can't wait to change things and to regain control of my path. I am what I have always wanted to be and I am learning to trust myself in that. I know I am a good mother and I know my children better than anyone else. Even if I make mistakes, I can correct them and we can be on the right path. My path. Where are my roots?
They are where I plant them. I am who I make myself. And sometimes we have to take what we were given and make something new. The Lord says, "Behold, I make all things new." Rev 21:5 My past does not define me and I give myself permission to be set free and made new.

Monday, April 26, 2010

Beautiful Boy

I love my son so much!!

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Gorgeous girl

I love my beautiful baby!